"Is Gay a Sin?"

Today I had a really good argument with a lady on the bus, who also followed me to the grocery store for this conversation. This is how the conversation went ...pay close attention, cause at the end, I want to know how all of my brothers feel about what she said.

"Excuse me my brother, do you know Jesus?"

I said "Yes! I know him really well." and I kept it moving. She then asked "Do you attend church? Would you be interested in coming to Greater Mount Calvary?" I said "I do attend church, but not Greater Mount Calvary!" I'm still walking and not paying her ass in her attention. She then says "Well you come, cause we are in the business of saving souls like yours. The homosexual spirit is running rampant." At this point I had to brace myself cause I was not trying to hear all that "HOLY ROLLER" shit!! Cause I'm sure she ain't been a SAINT all of her life. So I turn to her say "Welll I hope that GOD lets your judgemental ass in the gates then." And I kept it moving. She then decides to yell at me down the street "You and all of your faggot friends will never make it into heaven, cause what you do is a sin!!!" At this point, I stop! Turn around! And walk back to her and put her in place..."You don't know me, nor do you know what the FUCK I DO!!! I'm not out on the street putting people down in the name of Jesus...nor am I trying to get people to come to one of the biggest churches in DC, with the largest gay congregation. Jump back to reality, and get the fuck out of my face. Oh and if I do go to hell, which I doubt I will (I'm sure I will see here as there) It's my choice...NOW STEP THE FUCK OFF!!" I turned and walked away. 

Now my question is as a gay man, do you think we are going to hell? Is who we are really a sin? This is what I have to say on that!! NO in my opinion it's not, because as long as I have been alive, I have always known I was gay. I am no longer ashamed of who I am, and I am not trying to be something I'm not, in church or out! What do you think about this? Speak brutha's...I want to know! Do you think the way you are is a sin or are you happy with the way GOD made you?

Speak brutha's...COMMENT! 

Much Love,

CP

What is Openly Gay?

"What is Openly Gay?"

Now I cant take the credit for this topic, but I owe this to a group of guys that I see every Monday night at Us Helping Us in Washington DC. This group focuses on different discussion each week that caters to what affects us as black gay men. They are also partially the reason, I am doing what I am doing, and why I created this blog. So let's get right down to the subject! What is Openly Gay? We talked about this tonight, and there were alot of opinions. (keyword:Opinion) Everyone had their own perception of what is gay, or what makes  person openly gay, or honestly gay. Well I am honestly, openly gay! (This is my own personal opinion & value what you think about this subject)

We can not make a person be on the level that we are on, but we can encourage or help them along. Not everyone is willing to be on the front lines, and then some of us do not want to be on the back burner either. But it just depends on how quickly we move to the front of the line...I moved quickly, but I was once at the back. I listened to people in the group tonight, and I was inspired, and personally inspired by some who were bold, and in your face, and others that were a little more reserved, and not closeted, but more relax with it. Each of these were great, although I am one of the bold ones, I had to commend the ones that were quiet and reserved. We are all at different places, and that is okay!! I do not know what openly gay is to everyone, but I know that I live my life as openly as I can, and one person said it best. He is actually like a great Role Model to me, but he said "I'm truth" and I have to agree with that. I live to be truthful, and that's all I can do...either you accept it or you don't.

My question to all of my brothers is this...What is Openly Gay to you? Comment, speak, and pass it along!!

Remember "It's not about ME, it's about US!!! I cant wait to see what you all say!!

Much Love,

CP

My Life As A Black Gay Man Diary Entry 1:Introduction & Gay Teens

Welcome to My Life As A Black Gay Man,

This blog is dedicated to the many Black Gay Men, who feel that we dont have any where to go to discuss our issues, and the way that we feel. This blog will focus on the needs of what I hope will by my fans, and followers thoughts, and ideas. Whether you are a straight male, who wants to know why gay men act the way they act or a gay man who wants to talk about something that is on your mind, this is the place to do so.

Allow me the opportunity to introduce myself. I am Christian Paige, (Activist, Author, Singer, Host, Model & the list goes on) and I recently went to a meeting where the room was mixed with both white, black, asian, and latino men. I kept hearing the things that affected all of the other races, and none of the black guys would speak up to give their point of view, when one of the other ethnicities would say something like "Black guys dont have to deal with rejection in relationships." Or "Black guys dont really care about what happens at Capital Pride." (and mind you I do care about what happens at Capital Pride when it comes to being Black, cause I hate that we do not get recognized enough). So I sat back, and I observed, and then I decided, Im going to start voicing my opinion, but I dont know everything there is to being black and gay so Im going to include my BROTHERS in this venture. Which leads me to you...Feel free to comment, suggest topics, tune into the VIDEO BLOG ON YOUTUBE, and voice your opinion. I know most of this stuff will come from my point of view but if you dont agree, or have better advice, please let me know, and I will post it!! That's what's this is all about, VOICING OUR OPINIONS, AND OUR THOUGHTS!!
The GAY COMMUNITY is made up of a lot of different races, not just WHITE! (And before  I go any further, I am not a racist, I am just a realist, and huge supporter of GAY RIGHTS, but I want it to be known that Black Gay Men go thru just as much as White, Latino, Asian, African, & etc. do) Now that we have gotten that out of the way...let's get to a topic....

"Gay Teens"

We have all been young, and we all see these young boys running around here in DC (since DC is home, I can only talk about DC) with these purses, make-up, tight jeans, little shirts, and so on. We as older adults (myself included) will look at these poor poor babies, and laugh, make slick remarks, and then walk away. You know what's wrong with that, we didnt offer to help them out, or even suggest something. Understandbly so they may be expressing themselves, others are just following the leader. Allow me to be a little transparent here.

When I first came out of the closet, (and not the actual first time, cause I came out at least 3 times) I was at Fayetteville State University in NC. I was a flaming queen....didnt know if I wanted to be masc or fem. I juggled between the two (a act that I have learned to turn on and off over the years) dressing in fishnet shirts, leather pants, and dyeing my hair outrageous colors. I was proud to be gay, and did not care what anyone thought, but I could not seem to get a lover. Every man I met only wanted to FUCK me, and leave. Now, I was not easy, so don't think I was a whore, cause I was very picky about who got it, and I didnt want anyone from my hometown to get it at all. But for about two years, I struggled trying to find myself in this southern church driven town. Finally, one day I decided Im moving to Atlanta. I moved and I wanted to go out to Traxx (back in 2001) becaues they had this night called "Thugged out Tuesday" and if you were 21 you could get in free. OH MY!! I knew I couldnt get in dressed the way I was, so I toned it down, and for the first time, when I went into the club, guys noticed me, not for my ass or dick, but for my appearence. I never looked back!!

Now I said that to say this,

These young boys are only doing what they think is the norm. If you pay attention to some of the Reality Shows, most of the popular gay guys are EXTREMELY FLAMBOYANT!! This is a typical gay stereotype, but you do not see to many EXTREMELY FLAMBOYANT white guys on these shows, and if you do they do not get a lot of TV TIME!! We are Black Gay Men are not all Flamboyant, some of us are Masculine, some are stuck in between (like myself) but it's who we are! I guess what Im trying to say is, Being Gay does not mean...LET  ME PUT IT IN YOUR FACE!! That's what these kids are trying to do, and I know we all have gone thru that, but let's try and stop this cycle. To many GAY TEENS (black, white, asian, and etc.) are being bashed! Let's not give these guys any reason to bash our babies, let's try and help them. You can say something, hopefully they will listen!!!

Thanks for reading, and please COMMENT & Make Suggestions! As I stated I dont know it all, but Im willing to learn!

Much Love,

CP